It’s a curse and the biggest blessing. When you feel everything so deeply and you think that everyone else is the same but then you realise they’re not, there are times when you question yourself. Specially when those in the lower frequencies (most of people in the world, aka asleep ones) start projecting their insecurities and lack of self-authenticity at you and make you feel ‘different’. So you try to fit in pretending you don’t feel, which sucks/hurts even more. What’s really going on here is that most people NUMB their feelings, ignore them, or shut them down due to various reasons (it’s not a case that they don’t feel) and in return shame those who do express their feelings, because they aren’t strong enough to open themselves, they ridicule those who do. This is society for you. It’s been normalised that ‘to feel’ is a sign of weakness. Fuck that! What it means is that you’re vulnerable when you feel, therefore there is FEAR of feeling (and expressing it) because it can often be synonym of suffering. Well, let me tell you: If you don’t suffer you don’t thrive, grow, heal, love, live! Life comes with everything: pain and pleasure. Digest and assume that. Simply.
For a long time the mind-emotions-body connection has sparkled my interest. It makes sense, therefore, that Singing and Fitness are the disciplines that define me the most. It’s always a good sign when mainstream science doesn’t recognize something, it usually means it contradicts their statements to date, so they discard it by saying it’s impossible or that it doesn’t exist. Bloody ignorance. What we know as science is a lie, because it only recognizes what can be perceived by the 5 senses at a given point/period in time/space, which is only a fraction of everything that exists. We basically live in a system based on history/science/education that exclusively serve the ones who rule.
Just don’t worry, baby.
We can chase the rain,
erase the pain,
and start all over again.
We often get the ‘feeling’ of something, it goes normally accompanied by the ‘knowing’. There’s no knowing without feeling. Feeling is first. In order to know (I am talking about inner knowing, not knowledge, please note), we must feel first. The soul comes before the mind. We can push down the feeling with the mind, but the feeling is always there, no matter what. Feeling is the secret. It’s a simple, yet powerful concept.
What good it was
to give so much
Why did I have to come this far?
Foolish, oh so very foolish of me.
I threw myself into the grave,
For me, Singing has always been a deep task. Emotional as well as physical. The fulfillment one experiences while on a high when singing, is scaringly similar to what happens during the sexual act. One feels abundance, glory, a vessel that has been fulfilled thanks to the right vibrations (and what is the sound of voice, if not vibration?).